Thursday, June 27, 2013


****Maria loves Amer so much that even though she knows that it is just a one sided love,she decides to love him dearly,she gives him all her heart as well as all her senses too.when she finds out that Amer is getting a death threat from his close relative due to some disagreement about how is the fairest way to divide his father's wealth,maria becomes so worried and thinks about how she could help.due to listening so much on Bruno mars grenade song she instead of wanting to 'take a bullet for him' decides to put the bullet in the head of the relative. everyone is shocked but upon questioning she says that she do it out of love.
then does that makes love a bad thing?***

this is just a story i made to actually help me in explaining about my points in this post. And the bruno mars song has nothing to do with it.. :) i am going to give my opinion regarding what happened in London few weeks ago.i know it's not that recently but i heard that few Muslims have been attacked in few countries due to this issue. the woolwich incident was definitely something inhumane and there is no reason this world that would fairly justify what has happened.however to blame us all the Muslims for this is not fair.let's go back to the story above.if i were to say that everyone that loves should be blamed for what she did,you would say that i'm insane,wouldn't you? then why some people love to put the blame on Muslims just because the criminal said that he did that for his religion.If his interpretation of Islam is different from us the majority Muslims then should he be considered as someone that could represent Muslims? just like Maria,her interpretation of love is probably doing whatever to protect the one she loves but do we agree that it is the idea of 'love' that represents what we think it is?i don't think so.
i am so disappointed with those who think too shallow and decided to attack any Muslims for revenge. it does not take a genius to understand this whole concept and yet there are still people who blindly act their ways for the sake of so called justice.

to be honest if there is a person who should be angry at this incident,it should be us the Muslim. Why?not only a fellow human being is killed but our religion is being misunderstood when we already spent years in trying to convince people to not be afraid of Islam. this ruins everything.just because a Muslim said that he did something for his religion does not mean that he represents everyone.just because maria thinks that love means doing anything to protect Amer still it does not justify her action of killing isnt it?so if we were to judge everyone that loves, to have the tendency to kill then what are we implementing? please don't judge Islam by what Muslims do because there will always be  black sheep in any religion. i do hope that we wont hear any further attack on Muslims especially to the women.let's be good to one another and live peacefully (:

Saturday, June 15, 2013


-Underneath the moon, underneath the stars Here's a little heart for you Up above the world, up above it all Here's a hand to hold on to
But if I should break, if I should fall away What am I to do? I need someone to take a little of the weight Or I'll fall through
You're just the one that I've been waiting for I'll give you all that I have to give and more But don't let me fall
Take a little time, walk a little line Get the balance right Give a little love, gimme just enough So that I can hang on tight
We will be alright, I'll be by your side I won't let you down But I gotta know no matter how things go That you will be alright
You're just the one that I've been waiting for I'll give you all that I have to give and more But don't let me fall, don't let me fall
Underneath the moon, underneath the stars Here's a little heart for you Up above the world, up above it all Here's a hand to hold on to
You're just the one that I've been waiting for I'll give you all that I have to give and more But don't let me fall
You'll be the one that I'll love forever more I'll be here holding you high above it all But don't let me fall-

Not anymore perhaps?well with so much going on in my life I really dont want to mess with yours. I have always been watching from afar,liking you n silence,and now tiptoeing to leave you quietly.
Be happy,meet someone as great as you are and live your live as you have always been or better. 

Thursday, June 13, 2013

life update

it's been quite long since i last updated right.well i was quite busy.went for my umrah and alhamdulillah everything went quite well.started few sessions of radiotherapy but now i was told to stop it due to my recent ct scan seemed that there's few(or just one i am not sure) dots in the bone n lungs and doctor suspected them to be the metastasis from my renal cell carcinoma.metastasis is a huge word that can blow me just like that upon mentioning's the scariest word for the cancer patient.i was alone at the hospital when the doctor broke that bad news.and i just dont know how to felt like the world was falling apart for the second time,the 1st one would be when i was being diagnosed.i told my mom abt it and i told my close friend.i shed few tears,not as much as i thought i would.well i dont's hard but still He wont test me more than i could bear right?maybe i am a lot stronger than i know i would be?hehe..well i'm gonna have to go to kl to do another scan to make sure that the dots are cancerous or not and of course eventhough i dont want to give myself a false hope deep down i still wish that it isnt as what the doctor suspected.less likely to happen but well let's pray!worrying wont get me anywhere but i know prayers i wont waste my time worrying over this matter.i sound like i'm quite strong right?honestly to be strong is one thing and to maintain that is another thing.i am fragile but people around me keep me family my close friend,if i am weak then what would they do?that'll make them sad so let's just be strong.shall we? i am supposed to go to london this coming sept but it seems that my doctor doesnt want me to go.he asks me to get in touch with any consultant in london so that he could discuss beforehand whether i should be going or not.the problem is i dont know's not like i can just randomly ask for a favour from any know how things work in malaysia?we need to see the general doctor firts before being referred to a consultant.the same goes to's not like i can magically ask a busy consultant to spare me his time listening to my problem but well if i dont do it,my chance to be able to go back to london is quite i ask around.i ask my friend for help.i google it too.i just email a random consultant urological surgeon in royal london n guess what??he replies n says that he is happy to help and he'll ask around about my case too(coz my cancer is the rare type)..see i told u?prayers are so powerful.god sends me a stranger to help me out.alhamdulillah..i cant be it's time to keep praying that those dots arent real cancer..

thank you Allah for sending me someone i dont even know who are kind enough to help me.i love you!