Friday, April 12, 2013

birthday wishes?

happy birthday to me?hehe.well thank you for all the warm wishes and prayers!i really appreciate it so much.and special thanks to my friends in london for making me so jealous of the grand celebration for my birthday mate, madihah yusoff.happy birthday madihah!may all the happiness and blessings be with you all the time.enough about birthday,let's go to the main point of this post.

Allah listens!even if you whisper or just keep it in your heart and mind.He listens! be careful of what you wish for because it may come true :)

around march last year i was having this conversation with a good friend of mine.she was going to perform her umrah(The Umrah or (Arabicعمرة‎) is a pilgrimage to MeccaSaudi Arabia, performed by Muslims that can be undertaken at any time of the year-wki) few weeks later. i was so envious of her and i told her i really wanted to go but i already booked my flight to malaysia for easter break.she said to me insyaAllah your time will come one was organised for malaysian who lived in UK and they did it annually if i'm not mistaken so i was thinking about doing it next year.then i said to her how i wish to do it with my parents but it cant possibly come true because i was in London and they were in malaysia.i had 3 more years to go and by that time my dad would be 73 n my mom would be didnt seem feasible right?i also told her how i wish to spend more time with my parents,grow closer to them and do a lot of things with's true when people said we tend to appreciate people when they are not around.only when i was studying far away from home did i realize how much i need them in my i was growing up my parents were growing old,and it took me ages to realize that.

i was telling my friend  things i wanted to do especially those which involved my parents.little did i know that my friend was not the only one who was listening to those wishes.Allah listened to me too! Now it's been a year since i was having that conversation and guess what? I got to take a year off and now spending that precious time with my parents and family.and insyaAllah next friday I will be performing umrah with my parents.something that doesnt seem possible at first is now happening!alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.i cant be happier than this.

my point is,whatever good things you want to do,pray for it.ask Allah to help you.He listens to everything! i can never imagine things will be like this.Alhamdulillah.sometimes Allah takes something from us to give us is up to us to realize the blessings that come along with the test.He your eyes and you'll be grateful. Allah alone is sufficient if we believe!

May all of us be guided into the right path.may all of us be granted paradise :)

Monday, April 1, 2013

time does fly!

few days ago i decided to go to's been so long since i last came here and i was quite excited to see my 2 nieces.i used to come here very often till i got into college.seeing my 2 nieces now have grown into lovely teenagers really makes me think how quick time has gone by.i mean i was there when they were born and now they are like as tall as i am (dont question my height please).

have you ever heard the saying that when we are growing up we forget that our parents are growing old?this post is mainly about family and how important it is for us to realise that we have to take the time to actually cherish our moments with the family as much as we possibly could.why?because death waits for no one.

i still remember how i foolishly thought that being young mean I'll live longer than my parents. it was last june when my dad was diagnosed with heart condition.90% of his left heart vessels were blocked and the doctor suggested a bypass surgery. i was revising for my final exam at that moment when i received the broke me into pieces,as small as you can ever imagine.i was scared. it was my father who wanted me to do medicine.i sat down asking God to atleast let him see me graduating and allow him to watch me in my white coat.Little that i know 2 months later I was diagnosed to have an illness which can be linked directly with not having so much time either.i thought about it a lot.maybe at those times when i prayed for my father's health,i forget that death isnt directly proportional to age.i might be young but who knows.
so let's not think that we're going to live longer than the other and start to appreciate people around us shall we?

i spent quite a lot of time with my parents recently and i discovered something.their love are unconditional and they love us genuinely.this unselfish love made me regret those times i might have hurt them.what's the point of thinking about yesterday when i still have now to cherish right?so i made up my mind,for whatever time I or THEY have left,I'm gonna try my best to actually be a good daughter.I dont want them to worry about me anymore.i have great siblings too.we have our own ways of expressing love to one another but when i was hospitalised,i can really see how they actually care abt me.i always whine about the love i've never had but seriously now i think i should be grateful for the love i have all along.since i was born :)
 my dad is turning 70 this year and my mom is going to be 65 this august.

i just hope that I'll be the daughter they would want to have,the one that makes them happy I promise!
this sept i'll be in london again and i hope i wont forget this!