Thursday, December 30, 2010

bye2 2010

2010 leaves quite a significant impact to my's a very crucial phase of growing up and i think i've learned a lot this year. reminiscing the past by looking and reading at all the entries i've posted proves that yes life has its ups and down. let's just forget all the bad memories and just take the good one.

frankly speaking none of the tears was ever wasted. it was a great experience facing all those obstacles and finding myself now closer to my dream. another exam is coming in a month time so i guess i should start revising noooow :)

i love my life..i love doing medicine..i love being in london..i love knowing how to coook..i love being able to control my emotion and start to be less sensitive.i looooove the fact that i'm turning 20 in 2011 coz for me that indicates maturity ;)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

spain and new year

i just come back from spain and it was super duper awesome trip; great foods, very compatible companions, pretty places..omg my life cant be happier than this..and the temperature was from 8-16 degrees which made it a perfect winter gate-away.

I realize something I never thought I would. I’ve been thinking for quite a long time and now I’m sure that this is my final decision. I’m not yet ready for a relationship. Whatever or whoever that will pop out into my relationship life after this point should be the serious one coz I’m turning 20 and I had enough of ups and downs in this kind of thing. It’s a long long way to go and I don’t want to risk my happiness now for the sake of being in a relationship and turn myself into a more vulnerable person. When a girl is in a relationship, she tends to be more clingy, more sensitive and needs attention more than before. I don’t like those states of emotion. Now that I’m being a very random person with lame jokes sometimes and I know I can make all people around me comfortable and happy, it’s more than enough. I don’t need anything beyond that really. I have my values to be preserved and I know I will come to a point when I need someone to be with me but definitely not now.

New year resolutions?

  • bollywood and tango dance
  • stdy stdy n stdy coz nak pass all component ica esp spotter
  • save for easter break nak g holland
  • summer nak g paris italy greece sabah sarawak and indon-korea mcm tgh perang je??
  • and above alll i wanna be happy.a nicer and better me :)

adios :)


Saturday, December 11, 2010


exam result was released yesterday and i passed..all of us medicine we dont have 1st class or second class..we just have pass of fail..Alhamdulillah.. i'm so happy.

dear God,i sincerely thank you for everything that i have in my life. i asked you for good friends,u give me a family.last night was awesome. we went to winter wonderland..there are 10 of us because the 3rd year students need to study for their upcoming exam. this new family i have take a very good care of me. we share almost everything.tears and laughters,snow or shine. with them being around everything seems easy.when we,the 1st year were struggling for our exam,they cooked for us.they taught us things we need to know.they gave us bundle of past papers to help us facing the exam.they wanted us all to pass coz they dont want anyone to be sent back home-it happened before.

i'm going to spain this winter break.with my seniors..2nd year :)
we're heading to malaga-where the coast are just soooo great and then to granada.cordoba and back to malaga. the best part of this is the accommodation .we're staying in the sea view apartment and it's sooooo beautiful.and in cordoba we're staying in a penthouse. i'm looking forward for this holiday.

it's my biggest concern right now.i've been putting up so much weight since i gets worse when i found my latent talent in cooking.haha..but then people say i need it for winter..yeah this sounds like seeking solace for myself but i'm blaming the cold weather and the difficulties in doing exercises..sejuuuuuuuk kooooot..when winter says goodbye,i'm gonna get my ideal weight back.BMI lies,it always say that i'm ideal weight according to BMI is 50kg which is crazy!

adrenaline-rush event?let's see who's better!bring it on,you! :)

Friday, December 10, 2010


why do we need someone in order to be happy?it's simply because others do.we're so independent and easily influenced by this stereotypical world. we do something just for the sake of not wanting to be the odd one.

yeah of course at some point in life,you would find someone that fits your world perfectly.but to those who just want partner because they don't want to be stigmatized as "xlaku" or whatever is unacceptable. worse is when a person really mourn over his/her single-ness. there are a lot of ways to be happy. it's not that you dont have boyfriend and your happiness is gone. relationship never stay too long at the top you see. there would always be arguments,bad times and tear-inducing events. it's not as pretty as we always imagine.this world aint a fairy tale.

just go out,have fun with your friends and dont think about'll come when it's supposed to-my common advice when people come and complain about not having someone to care about n to be cared by.
easier said than done when yooou can easily get anyone you have in mind idzni-ceeeeit aku pulak yg kena..hahahha life sucks as well. i cried like hell at times but i find no point letting all this misery controls my life.i have good friends.i figure out most of my interest when i'm single-when i have nobody to think of and to miss as it's kinda true when people say being single just mean you want more time to get to know yourself and it can also mean that you haven't found the right one who deserves you :). not trying to seek solace here but that's the best side of it.

i learn how to cook, go out mingle around with everyone, shopping spree with my friends, having good meals with all the seniors. i'm having a great time so why cant you my dearest friends?happiness doesnt only mean you have to sit 3 hours in front of your laptop skyping with your means much more than you just need to open up and live your life. love is not like bicester shopping village-you have not lived untill u're there atleast once..*weird analogy..hahaha

the lonely syndrome everyone is talking about..yeah coudnt agree more..when you're far away from your family,your friends spread all over uk,and you just have few good friends at your uni and they always have bf with them all the time.the urge to get one increases rapidly.i know. but then again it's not worth all the pain if u're just not into someone and force urself just because you want to have someone by your side..not worth your time at all.

sometimes i'm sick of listening to people whining about how miserable life is when nobody cares-eh hello wait till you have someone and i'm sure u'll be grumbling about not having enough time for yourself or she just dont understand you or maybe she wants everything to follow her way or even worse-she's not the one. tell me about it. i have a lot of guys coming to me with bundle of relationship problems seeking for opinion on what to do,so i know.

how could you easily forget A and now you're having another crush?or he's just a rebound?how could it be that easy for you to move's like a slap on the face..hahaha..
it's NOT easy but world doesnt stop spinning even if i cry a river for what's's not that i can change anything if i weep about it longer than i actually did. 2 weeks rule-never ever cry more than two weeks about anything ANYTHING that makes you works :)
and about moving on it's not that i can choose what i want to feel.sometimes i let my heart goes over my head.and rebound?never existed in my life coz when i have a crush on someone i'm going crazy about him-my best friends and my sisters know this..hahaha..cant stop thinking and talking about that special someone. for me, those who have left-it doenst meant they're simply means that their story in my life has ended. and of course a new story begins :)

i'm not trying to say that seeking the right one is not good,it's just that dont let it take too much of your time coz it will eventually happen one the mean time,sit back relax and enjoy life as much as you possibly could.

abnormalities when having crush to a medical student- conversation starts with something about medicine,less dependent as we're all busy,sharing thoughts about disease or patient's condition,asking about exams..haha..apekaaaah??

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


i find my passion in cooking is developing very rapidly nowadays. i never love cooking this much but when you actually see the happy faces of all the people that eat the meals you serve,it's the best feeling's unexplainable but yeah it does make me happy.i've always amazed by people that know how to cook but recently i've realised that it's not that hard..the most important ingredient is 'the willingness' :)

mmg betul laaa..ble duk jauh ni baru laaa betul2 kenal maksud matang and independent tu ape..banyak benda kena buat sendiri tp in a way bagus laaaaa...
my next birthday,it's like the most important's a huge transformation from having 1 to 2 in front of my age..but looking at things i've actually absorbed and keep inside me,i think i'm ready..being matured doesnt mean that i need to lose my childish side* i do have but only certain people can actually see that*

sekarang sgt exciteeeed blajaaaaa masak..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

lets talk about fate

well people say so much about everything happens for a reason,so much that sometimes you feel like you've had enough of it..enough of listening to people babbling about seeing things from a bright side when all you can see is only darkness. i say that to my frens as well,most of the time when something unpleasant happen. but i know we can only bring a horse to the water,not forcing them to drink.we can only show em the way to look at things but not pushing their heads so that they'll look at the same direction as we do..

there are things in life that take a little longer than the other to be figured out-the reason why they happen that way.

relationship wise-there are people meeting in wrong time though they have mutual feelings.some of them are one sided n when the other side starts to develop the feeling,the previous one fades..the time is not right! but i've always had this idea in day one fine day everyone will meet the right one at the right in the mean time enjoy all the confusion and just be happy.i'm proud to say this-i've told you..once u've met the right one,u'll do ur best,seek every opportunity to make it right n not letting the past haunts you,u're not confused as u used to,u're not afraid to tell people bout it-yes that's what i meant when i said i think i'm not the one :)
i can smile and let things go easily. i have to admit u were right when you said i'll be better off as time goes by..indeed it's true.

i've had enough of making decision on my own and not listening to people. n now i make a vow to myself that whatever comes my way,it'll stay that way..i wont try to change it but i'll make it suit me.

i've found a person that really makes me his own weird way.i used to say this a lot-it's too early to say anything-
but now with the new vow here it is a confession-u're extraordinary :0


Monday, December 6, 2010


laksa penang..omg...bestnye*ok sorry puji masakan sendiri*
hahaha..mengidam nak makan so buat laaaah..yeayyy:)


Thursday, December 2, 2010


ayam paprik..wooooot wooooooooooot...hahaha..
seniors are having their exam 2mrw so masak utk diorg..dua org je pun senior pmpuan year saje laaah menjadi sweet kejaaaap..hehehehhe...all the best seniors! :D